The scales weren't kind this morning. Okay so I get that they are an objective observer and don't get to tell me anything beyond what I've done to myself.
And what I've done to myself is sabotage.
Challenge start: 129.6
Last week: 130
This week: 131
That's right folks, the number is getting higher, not lower. Since next week is "my week" I'm sure to finish off this challenge with a big fat gain. (I always gain the week of my visitor.)
I worked through this a little on twitter the other day with April and Kirstin - I mostly think I'm scared of the anemia coming back. Scared that somehow my diet and exercise plan will coerce the ugly beast into making a reappearance.
I cannot live in fear! Taking the wise advice of Tiffany, I'm going to drop the calorie restriction for a while. Eat good, healthy foods when I'm hungry. And train till my heart's content. Maybe neither caused it, the doctor couldn't say for sure. But if one did, adding things back one at a time will help eliminate the culprit.
Instead of crying into my glass of water (its a little early for a tear in my beer) I'm going to think about two new challenges I'm going to participate in.
The first was recommended by Kirstin - the Inner Mean Girl 40 Day Cleanse. Here's what the hosts have to say about it.
It’s totally free, it starts on August 25th, and within 6 weeks we will have outed 6 of our Inner Mean Girls toxic habits. Comparison. Judgment. Obligations. And more… Goodbye!
Check it out and get registered now at: www.MeanGirlCleanse.com
Can’t wait to have this experience together!
I've signed up and I'll certainly let you know how it goes as I progress!
The other challenge is for the rest of the year. Its called the Drop Dead Gorgeous by December challenge hosted by Jess. While you can include your weight in your portion of the challenge if you'd like, it mostly focuses on being nice to yourself, and pursuing your goals.
Here's what you need to get started:
1. A photo of yourself with a self-motivational note.
Yes, those are my jammies. Jay didn't get home until late last night and had his camera with it. Never seen a woman in a ratty old shirt and silk PJ pants? Get over it!
I thought about it on my run last night and come up with this mantra for my sign - I can, I have, I will. I can train for whatever I set my mind to. How do I know? Because I already have. I will meet my triathlon, half marathon, and marathon goals over the next 4-5 months.
2. Posting your weight is completely optional.
see above. it ain't pretty!
3. At least one but no more than five long-term goals.
- Complete the Anchor Splash Triathlon
- Complete the Secret City Half Marathon in a new personal record
- Love myself
Out of the 3, its the last one that terrifies me. Comparatively the other 2 are easy peasy.4. One brag for the week.
I made myself get out and run last night! Only a big deal because I'm a girl that likes to go home and put on her jammies (as seen above). I usually either work out at lunch, or immediately following work. Seldom do I make myself workout after I'm home for the evening. Last night I made it happen!
5. One thing to improve upon for next week.
Consistency - I need to complete 1 bike, 1 run, 2 swims and a brick for my triathlon training.