I gained weight this week.
Starting weight: 129.6
Challenge goal weight: 125.0
Today's weight: 130.0
That's right folks, an extra 0.4 pounds I didn't have last week. Trust me, I earned a bigger gain than that. THIS HAS TO STOP!
This week Jay told me that I shouldn't do my triathlon. He's afraid it will be too much too soon and I'll have a repeat performance of this. (Looking back, that wasn't asthma folks - that was my oxygen depleted body from anemia. Scary how bad I let it get. )
I desperately want to do the triathlon though. And honestly, as long as I accept God's terms, I think I can. What - you didn't read that whole link? Okay I'll give you the cliff notes version - I have to be okay with finishing last. And I have to do it cheerfully - encouraging everyone who passes me along the way.
I want this girl back. The one who encouraged her parents and husband to push themselves to meet their goal.
I miss Super Boo. I want her back. She was confident. She did what it took to get the job done. She's been in hiding because her arch Nemesis Anemia scares her.
I can get there. I know it can. It'll just take a little hard work mixed with motivation.
Could you pass me the stirring spoon?
You can do it! I know you can. Just like that little engine... :)
ReplyDeleteOh Brooke... a small gain is no biggie... but as far as the tri... do want makes you happy and what you think you can do! If you think it will interfere with Disney, then maybe don't do it, but if not... GO FOR IT@
ReplyDeleteYou are already Super Boo to me. Go for it, girl.
ReplyDeleteYou do rock. You are amazing and you can do anything, you've already shown us that.
ReplyDeleteTake it slow and listen to your body. You know the warning signs now and you won't let it get as bad as it was last time (which it might not happen again).
Weight fluctuates so much. Try weighing yourself again later in the day. I bet you'll have lost weight. =)
ReplyDeleteIf you can do the tri, do it, but if you can't, don't worry. You're doing a full marathon soon!!! That's amazing!!
Super Boo has definitely been hiding. I'm sure you miss her as do I. But, you know what? She's still there. Nemesis Anemia sapped you not only of your energy - literally - but of your confidence. I think you should do the triathlon if for no other reason that to get out and finish a race. And not just any race but a race you've never done before. And then you will have a baseline and you'll feel like you can accomplish a goal again. You need to let Super Boo out. If you don't want to do it for you, do it for your niece. Do it show her that you *can* come back from a setback. Love you, my friend. You *are* smart, strong, and sexy. It's time to embrace that.
ReplyDeletei hope you find her too, we'll help you search for her...because she is too awesome to keep in hiding.
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing! After all you have gone through this year you are still in it for the "long haul". You are smart, strong and sexy and you can do "all" things through Christ who gives you strength - including this race! Love ya!
ReplyDeleteI know you can do it, but I don't want you to push yourself beyond what your body post-Anemia is up to doing! You know your body, though, so I think you should train as much as you can w/o pushing so hard that you end up back where you were. Does that make sense?
ReplyDeleteAww Brooke, you do totally rock!! There is no shame in being a little scared of the anemia. It kicked your ass before. I'm behind you no matter what you decide to do.. Only you know what you are capable of trying. And that little gain, big deal. It's probably already gone.
ReplyDeleteThat Brooke is still there. She might be lurking in the shadows, but know you can coax her out again. Just be gentle with her, because she's been through a lot, okay?
ReplyDeleteMWAH!!!!
I know you can do it and you know you can do it!!! Find that motivation deep within you and draw it out!!! Remember, we are counting on you :D
ReplyDeleteyou've still got it--and her. do what's truly best for you!
ReplyDelete(i refuse to weigh myself for 3 more days. between period bloat while i was in kc...and eating like mad while i was in kc...it's just best that way)
Brooke, you ARE Super Boo! You can do this!!
ReplyDeleteSuper Boo is still there. She never left. YOU can do this!
ReplyDeleteI walked around the block today.
ReplyDeleteYep.
I am a loser so I can't motivate you to do a marathon. I know you will do it though. Just like I know you will keep getting maggots on your trash. And like you will keep cleaning out your cabinets. And keep getting hit on : ) You are a super star. You can do anything you put your mind to.