March 23, 2011

Good Enough?

This has been a mixed up jumbled week.  I haven't completed an official workout in a week, I haven't tracked my calories in over 10 days, and I lost no weight this week.

The kicker?  I really don't care all that much. 

Ya see those things I haven't done?  Those were choices I made.  Deliberate choices.

Cleaning my house on Saturday?  Far more important than working out.  Helping my sister over the weekend?  That's getting the job done.  In light of the week's events "completed her food and exercise diary for XX/XX/20XX and was under her calorie goal" didn't even register on the radar.

Having lunch with the Princess and Little Man, followed by dinner & playing on the playground with them was far more rewarding than any training run could come close to being.

I'm going to apologize in advance for not being able to cheer you on commenting on your blogs this week.  I understand that many of you are on this journey so you can have those moments with your children and grandchildren.  I also understand (maybe more than anyone) how health and vanity get confused sometimes.

How'd I do on my goals?  While I had a salad most days, I averaged about 2 fruits/veggies a day (at least 3 was goal).  I moved every day, but Wednesday/Thursday were the only two days I actually "worked out". 

I did very well on my water - I drank as much water as possible without Jay fussing on me for having to take potty breaks on our road trips.

I hit the reading goals out of the park.   Practically every night I've read on my front porch swing.  For those days we were traveling I love reading while riding in the car.  Even exhausted at 11:30 at night, I got my Bible reading in. 

So while I'm up 1.4 pounds from last week, I'm happy with my life.  I'm blessed to have an incredible family.  I'm blessed that we're all in (mostly) good health.  My sister said a few days ago that it was surreal having her Grandparents extend their condolences for the passing of her husband's father. 

My BIL was headed home for a spring break visit when he got a call from his SIL.  The ambulance was at his parents house and they were trying to resessitate his father.  His flight couldn't be pushed up any more, and he arrived 2 hours before his father passed. 

I refuse to believe things like that are coincidence.

Also?  Through a conversation started by Twitter, God's hand of protection with my husband was revealed to have started from an early age.  His hemophillia diagnosis was late in coming, which meant he was never treated with human blood - including blood infected with HIV like many other hemophilliacs in that era.  He was, however, diagnosed just days before he was about to have surgery.  A surgery that would have quite possibly killed him since the doctors weren't aware of his bleeding disorder.

God's timing is always perfect, whether we realize it or not.

I guess knowing all of that, its hard for me to care that eating pizza and ice cream with my niece caused me the scale to rise. 

She's missing her father and sad about her Papa.  And I'm just enough for her, to provide her with comfort and a sense of security.

If I'm enough for her and the Little Man (& my husband & parents & grandparents & doctor), that's enough for me.

17 comments:

  1. beautiful perspective

    continued ((hugs)) and prayers for your family

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  2. Warms my heart to read this post, Brooke. I'm glad you're in a place where you can put these events into perspective and realize what's truly important. That's so great to see! Carry on.

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  3. Beautiful post! Brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing your heart!

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  4. Can you earmark this post? Seriously. Because you're right on all levels. You made need to go back and read this at some point in the future. You made good choices - and not one of those was eating out of spite or anger at the scale. You *lived* your life and that's what's important.

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  5. Family comes FIRST when it comes to goals (after God of course) and you have been taking care of family. Those pounds will come off when things slow down with the extended fam. I'm praying for you and your family!!

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  6. You're doing more than good enough. You're doing great things by being there for your family.

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  7. You are certainly good enough! I think you have a great & healthy perspective on all of this! I'll continue to keep your BIL's family in my prayers.

    {That's funny about the workout video! :) I'm glad someone can relate!!}

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  8. I love this post Brooke! The scale doesn't measure the importance of your actions of the past week. ((hugs)) and good thoughts for you and your family ahead. And if you need anything, I'm only an email away. :)

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  9. I agree with all the previous comments! You family is in my thoughts and prayers!

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  10. i love that you are keeping the weight loss in balance and prespective. i get so wrapped up in losing the weight (still from the freakin marathon,,,ahhh) that sometimes ALL i think about is food and working out, and my love handles.

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  11. Prayer for you family. Such a wonderful and meaningful post.

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  12. Balance - I think you're finding it! :)

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  13. I'm so sorry Brooke...for all that your family is going through.

    "Pour out your heart before Him,
    God is a refuge for us."
    ~Psalm 62:8

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  14. Beautifully said.
    Sometimes we get caught up in day-to-day minutia and it takes something bigger than we are to free us.
    Thinking of you and yours.
    BTW I loved what you said about the personal training issue on my post today. It's so simple really.

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  15. so true, every word of it. you have your priorities very much where they should be, and you KNOW it...that's incredible :D

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