Its weigh in day over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. I'm tired and a had a very weird morning, so I'll get right to the numbers.
Challenge start: 133
Last week: 130.8
This week: 132
The scale just confirms what I already knew - its crunch time. If I want to get below 130 I'm going to have to kick it in high gear.
I'll just be honest - I don't have encouragement at home. Before you start thinking my husband is a jerk, that's not it at all. He tells me how hot and skinny I am, and how much he loves my body (filthy bastard I know :P).
I purchased a pair of size 6 pants at Banana Republic on Monday, and a size 0 (a-line of course) dress on Saturday.
HOWEVER I still have some fat, flabby thighs.
The fitness instructor at my gym told me that my body would probably be happiest here and going lower would take a lot of work. I want the results, I'm just not sure I'm up for the challenge.
Don't worry, I'm not turning back to my old life. I enjoy exercise and the way it makes my body feel. I also plan to continue count my calories and try to choose healthier foods.
Even though I was just 1 pound away last week, the 120s seem like the unreachable dream.
What am I made of? Am I a quitter that settles for good enough? Or am I a strong-willed woman who doesn't stop until she gets what she wants? Right now I'm just not sure.
this is a really really tough place. i know. my body wants to stay right where it is, i just don't want it to. good enough isn't good enough for me anymore. high gear right now for me is an understatement.
ReplyDeletei am sure you look spectacular already but if you're wondering if you can or can not, i assure you 150% that you CAN. whatever you want to do, you can. (even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes).
for me the best successes come out of my discouragement (turns out that if i never got discouraged, i wouldn't have tried as hard).
good luck!!
I can't really imagine being in that position, but I think I can still understand not really being content with the same weight that your body seems content with. Maybe it's time to be content with maintenance right now. Maybe it's the right time to enjoy your success and to stop focusing so much on losing weight ~ rather just on keeping up your activity levels and your healthy eating habits.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's time to take up competitive speed skating or cycling. Have you seen the thighs on THOSE women??!!
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Size 0 - where do you go from there? I think you're doing a great job - you're healthy, that's what's important. I think continue to keep it fun, when it starts to feel like work then that's when one can get bored of it.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you have such a supportive husband but I also feel your frustrations. Rambo tells me all the time he loves my body which makes me want to shove him away from my Wii fit stairs. It's a conspiracy I tell ya!
ReplyDeleteI think listening to your body and what it's trying to tell you is very important. If its content, it slowly but surely will come to a full circle. :)
There's also the point where we become obsessed with something we have no business becoming obsessed with - perfection.
ReplyDeleteI don't think it's giving up if we're being realistic.
Only you can know when that point is.
Okay, we talked about this today, so you know how I feel. You're at the point where it's not NEED, it's WANT. I think that's great!! So many people would now say, "I'm good, thanks". But you haven't and you are not a quitter and you will get there. I promise. :o)
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain. I've only worked out twice this week so far, and I know tomorrow's shot cause we're heading to class tomorrow. BOO. Oh, and what did my sweet hubby say? "I love every ounce of you." FABULOUS. Thanks, love. ;)
ReplyDeleteLife is not fair, dude. I just lost 5 lbs last week with barely any exercise... against my will though because, i ve been trying to gain them back...
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Those numbers look just like mine... Everytime I start to move in the right direction, I get all excited or lax and end up in the wrong direction the next week! I'm aiming for 120 by August but am struggling to get below the 130 mark at the moment.
ReplyDeleteYou want to be happy with your body! And really what is the difference between 130 and 129? If 129 means no Dr. Pepper and tons of hours in the gym is it worth it? Or is having an occassional Dr. Pepper and swapping hours of gym time for some couch time w/ Mr. Right at 130lbs sound better?
ReplyDeleteI'm not trying to discourage you but I want you to think about what is more important and maybe when you get to that place where it comes natural, you'll be surprised to find that a little more weight slides off!!
~ Katie
Your not a quitter you will realize your goals, I know you will. Keep up the good work. But like previous comments have said, you have to be happy with yourself, don't be focused on a number if you look and feel good.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya, my body seems to really enjoy 145. I've been skinnier, I was 135 last year. But if I want to stay at that weight I have to WORK, and frankly, I'm pretty lazy. lol At this point in my life it's just not worth it to me to fight to be skinnier. I've decided to enjoy 145, and my current eating/exercise levels.
ReplyDeleteI'm convinced that in 10 years you'll look back and be thrilled with 130. :)