*that's baseball lingo for being benched. DL = the disabled list
I know that I'm supposed to be drawing closer to God in this time. Whether that was His intention and He orchestrated the circumstance, or if He just wants to use it I'm not sure.
I know that God wants me to depend on Him and Him alone right now. That's why I feel (whether its true or not) that Jay doesn't quite understand. In fact I think there are only a handful of people that truly get what I'm feeling right now. That's not because I'm surrounded by heartless or uncaring people, quite the opposite.
God doesn't wanting me turning to my husband, family, or even friends for comfort.
Reading yesterday afternoon, I came across the following quote. It seemed random and not on topic for the book, but perfect for my current situation.
"If God wants you in the place you are in right now, then there are no greener pastures." -Stormie Omartian
What are my greener pastures? Right now they are rediscovering my love of reading, and planning my 30th birthday party.
Jay and I have gotten a lot done to the house that we neglected after we moved in and got tired. Its good to get these finishing touches done.
As for reading, I've started the Chronicles of Narnia series. I'm loving the imagery of Aslan the Lion (Lewis's Christ character in the books). I almost cried in the doctor's office reading the description of the strong yet gentle Savior. There have been a few moments since then, where I've pictured myself curled up with my head resting on the Lion of Judah, stroking his mane.
A few weeks ago I was in a funk and took some pictures of things that make me happy.
I'm trading this running route...
(See the cows on the hill? Those guys mooing help in making me feel at home.)
To this reading perch...
(See my toes-es in the bottom corner?)
Trading nights of training and weekends of racing for moments of making this the best home it can be.
We are blessed, Jay & I. No matter how tired or frustrated I get, that's undeniable.
(Like my "I need more cowbell" necklace?)
I can't take credit for any of the gardening work - most of the landscaping was already taken care of. What little work that has been done out there has been done by Jay. I love most of what the previous owners had planted though.
What are you thankful for today?