Its that time again - the first of the month when I look over our expenditures for the past month and freak out.
We had a couple of big expenses this month: we had wills prepared, purchased life insurance for Jay (woot!), and paid for underground utilities to be put in at our 5.5 acres. Those expenses caused our regular monthly budget to be doubled!
I don't like seeing our money leave like that!! (Although the subdivision will be so much nicer with underground electric.) Crunching the numbers we're exactly where we planned to be for the year, but I still see plenty of places that we could trim things down a bit, and that stresses me.
I shouldn't worry about it. Even with the those extra expenses, we're still living on about half of what we'll be earning this year. I'd tell anyone else that the were kick @$$ rock stars for achieving that - so why do I feel guilty for buying myself running gear? Why do I want to kick Jay's rear for spending $75 on tobacco?
I'm paying someone to change the oil in my car today. It desperately needs it (5,500 miles) and Jay's been too busy working to change it like he normally does. An oil change is a need - I don't get to feel guilty for that.
But that leads me to my question of the day - I really want the interior of my car cleaned up. Jay certainly doesn't have time for it. Tomorrow would be my only opportunity, but I'm not sure I'll be able to or not. Remember my list?
I'm running 8 miles tomorrow, which will take about an hour and a half, plus general household leaning for a couple of hours, plus 2-3 hours worth of flowerbed weeding. When am I going to fit in vacuuming, windexing, and cleaning the upholstery of my car?
I could pay someone to do it, but then comes the guilty. A clean car is a want, not a need. Then again maybe its worth $20-30 to get the stress off me?
What do you think?