January 26, 2010

Heartfelt True Confessions Volume 2

Last week was a tough week for me, as evident in last week's confessional post.  Then by the end of the week, Christie made me say why I discovered I totally rock.

Heading into this weekend Aunt Flow was packing her bags and I was on my way to feeling better.  I went to the Repeat Boutique 70% off sale hoping that I could find a couple pair of pants so I could retire the remainder of the pants I wore 10 pounds ago.  Instead of a couple pair - I walked out with 8 new (to me) pairs of pants, plus a skirt and wrap dress!

I'm hoping to get the pictures taken tonight so it can go up with my weigh in post.  Truth be told I'm trying not to focus on the scale.  Sure I weigh myself each week and hope that the number is smaller than the previous week, but I'm really trying to not let it ruin my day get away from the scale meaning so much.  What could be more Shrinking Jeans appropriate than a fashion show demonstrating how the ladies over there encouraged me and enabling me to buy a pair of size 4 jeans???

I walked out of the store with a bag of 4s (and a couple of 6s) feeling pretty good about myself.  Normally I struggle to find pants to fit over my saddle bags fit me properly.  I've changed my shape/size and learned what brands work for me and what brands don't.  So I was able to walk in, go straight to the pants rack, and, after trying on about 20 pair, find 8 pair of pants that fit me wonderfully!

Needless to say I was riding pretty high at that moment.  Shopping took precident over lunch, so by the time that I met my family at my aunt's 80th birthday party I was starving.  Yes, you read that right.  My Aunt Dorothy turned 80 this past week - my dad (her brother) isn't even 60 yet.  My grandmother had a kid every two years consistantly for 16 years until my Uncle Ken was born.  She thought mother nature was done with her...until 8 years later when my dad made his appearance. 

Needless to say (I keep saying that, but then I keep saying what I say is needless...hmmm) my aunt's children (my cousins) are dramatically older than me.  My dad was an uncle when he was born thanks to this particular aunt.  Said children are tremendous cooks. 

I hadn't had lunch, there was a delicious spread of food so I dived right in.

But we're not to the confession part yet.

I had chips & ranch dip, tortilla chips & bean dip, veggies, fruit, chocolate covered strawberries, chocolate covered marshmallows (they had a chocolate fountain), sausage balls, chicken nuggets, and cake. 

And I didn't care.

That's my confession - I ate all of that yumminess and I didn't care to count the calories as they went in my mouth.

I'm down to a good weight for me, and even though I'd like to lose several more pounds my world isn't going to end if I don't.  I fit into size 4 pants for goodness sake!

I know this is by no means license to eat whatever I want whenever I want.  But splurging on the weekends isn't going to kill me.  I mean how often does your Aunt turn 80?  (Acutally, I have the opportunity for that to happen 4 more times...and an additional 5 if you count Aunt-in-laws.)

Getting back to the point.  I'm in no rush to lose that last 5-7 pounds.  If I only lose 0.5 some weeks, that's okay.  If I don't lose at all, its not the end of the world.

Dear God, Please don't let me gain this week.

The hard part will be maintaining this attitude.  Because I know its the truth.  I just sometimes put on my chubby googles and like to live in the land of "poor, pitiful me". 

When I go back there, please feel free to slap me back to the land of truth.


  1. 4's and 6's.. I think that is wonderful! You have an amazing body and I would not be too concerned with the scale!

  2. Hooray for you! You look great and a little splurge now and then won't hurt!

  3. Yes, you gotta splurge once in a while! You only live once so while you need to be healthy, you need to enjoy too. It sounds awesome.

  4. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself!! You're right, maintaining that positive mindset will be the hard part; it will come and go. We'll happily give you the e-mail equivalent of a smack and turn you back to this post if it becomes necessary!

  5. 4's and 6's! That just reminds me of the line from "The Devil Wears Prada" (the movie not the book) A guy is teasing her about her size 6 a$$ and she politely responds "size 4!" This is a great attitude to have. You're an amazing person.

  6. Woo Hoo!! Glad you found some great stuff! You can splurge every now and then, you need to. But keep up the great work!!

  7. 4's and 6's...WOOHOOO! I think pants shopping is difficult for just about everyone. I don't blame you for buying so many! It's a good reward for all your hard work! And, you've gotta have a cheat day everyone once in awhile.

  8. 4's...that is awesome Brooke! Woo to the Hoo!

    Yes it's hard not to focus on the scale when that's what we used for so long to measure how we were doing. You obviously are doing the right thing...miss half marathon girl you!!!

  9. Unreal! You have got to be the most talented shopper ever...queen of the size 4 and the bargain! haha

  10. That's a great attitude. Its good to get to that place where you can splurge sometimes and not feel guilty about it. Life is too short!

  11. i agree, you're at a great, healthy weight and splurges now and then aren't the enemy. it's when the splurges turn into a daily event. so splurge away! (moderately.) lol xo awesome on the 4's dude. i hope to be there one day.

  12. Great, healthy attitude for you! Size 4s and 6s are awesome. Sometimes how your clothes fit is way more telling than the scale anyway. Good for you!

  13. *that* is the attitude I'm striving for. Maintaining, while not fabulous at this weight, is better than gaining. And a loss is a loss is a loss.

    (perhaps that should be MY mantra!)


    4's and 6's are fantastic. And no, a tiny increase one week, only to lose the next week is no big deal. You can do this Brooke. Look how far you have already come.

    I am so darn proud of you!

  15. Splurging is necessary occasionally for our sanity! You have a great attitude in this "true confessions" post. :)

  16. You are a beautiful young lady and I will not hate you because you are wearing a size 4!! You deserve to have a weekend of eating whatever you want. I think it helps us to lose more weight when we do that....ya know boost the metabolism and all that??!! You totally rock!!

  17. Good for you!! You deserve to splurge occasionally & not feel guilty about it! Also, according to several trainers that I've met with in the past, if I were fit {like you}, I'd actually weigh about 5 pounds more than I currently do {but look awesome, of course}. So there! If those 4's & 6's fit, the number on the scale doesn't really mean anything!

  18. Oh to be in 4 and 6s again. Good for you and happy birthday to your aunt. 80...wow!


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