And since it's True Confessions Tuesday that means you can't give me any crap.
See, the button says so!
In all seriousness, though, how do I know?
Am I greedy for wanting more? Maybe. Probably.
Like any other woman, I have good weeks and I have bad weeks. Two weeks ago my confessional was 100% positive. Contentment.
This week is very similar - yet another "rare" event caused me to throw my calorie counting out the window. Only somehow this week I don't feel as inspired.
Is it because its easy to say that I'm okay with it the first week I'm stagnant, then after a few weeks I start to get frustrated? Complacent.
Right now I'm considering just going back to maintenance. I'm still not back where I was before my holiday eating spree/exercise break. However I'm thinking about taking 2100 calories out for a spin.
I know I won't be happy with myself until I at least get back to 125. Maybe 120 was unrealistic on my part. Or maybe, just maybe, I need to believe in myself - in the person I am when I'm working out 7-10 times a week. Because that person doesn't stuff herself on velveeta & hormel chili dip served w/tortilla chips.
She is an athlete who considers food fuel, not entertainment.
I want to be her.
I am her.
So I guess I answered my own question - what's the difference?
I can be content enough with myself to slide a little for a week. When I start to wallow in it is when the complacancy tries to kick in.
So now its time for me to kick it back into focus.
Normally I try to balance my calories out. If I go over by 100 today, I eat 100 less tomorrow. After this weekend, that's just not possible. But I do have the power to wipe the slate clean.
Starting today its 1650. I can't worry about my weekend mistake. I can't afford to repeat it either.
Today is all I have.
I'll also admit to having a mini meltdown last night. Have I mentioned how great of a husband I have? I did a complete emotional 180 out of the blue, sobbing uncontrollably. Somehow he didn't freak out, didn't get upset with me, and did what he could to help me get back to the other side of the 180.
Not sure why he loves someone as
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